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PICK: Vax to the Future

Hit me with your best shot: No ’80s playlist is complete without songs by Madonna, Elton John, Sinead O’Connor, Bruce Springsteen, Janet Jackson, and The Pet Shop Boys. Yet while their sing-along hits were dominating the airwaves, each of these artists recorded lesser-known tracks to bring attention to the HIV/AIDS epidemic that was largely ignored at the time. At Vax to the Future, musician Shawn Decker (diagnosed with HIV in 1987 at age 11) uses his own experience—and an’80s dance party!—to shine a spotlight on the coronavirus vaccine. “I’ve dedicated my entire adult life to educating about the stigma that comes with HIV, and many of those battles are fighting misinformation,” says Decker. “Certainly some parallels can be drawn to the current situation we are all facing with COVID-19.”

Saturday 7/24, $12-15, 8pm. The Jefferson Theater, 110 E. Main St., Downtown Mall. jeffersontheater.com.

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Catching magic: Musician and HIV educator Shawn Decker celebrates a life full of surprises

Shawn Decker remembers the first time he heard Depeche Mode. He was 12 or 13, and getting a ride home from his friend’s brother when he noticed the music coming out of the car stereo.

“What is this?!” he asked.  The vulnerability of the lyrics, the mood of the new wave/synth-pop sound—it  was unlike anything he’d heard before. Depeche Mode became his favorite band.

Thirty years ago, on June 6, 1990, Decker met Depeche Mode after a show at Merriweather Post Pavilion in Columbia, Maryland. It was a turning point in his life, and he plans to commemorate the occasion sometime next month with a virtual party on Facebook Live.

What Decker’s really celebrating isn’t the fact that he got to meet his favorite band when he was 14, but that he’s alive to mark the occasion.

Decker was diagnosed with HIV, which he’d contracted through a blood transfusion, in 1987. He was 11 years old, and doctors gave him about two years to live. Meeting the band was Decker’s Make-A-Wish Foundation “wish.” He was ecstatic to meet Depeche Mode, but says it meant “coming to terms with the fact that I was eligible for it.”

In 1990, Shawn Decker (front left, in the patterned shirt) was fighting HIV and facing a frighteningly uncertain future. He met Depeche Mode (below) through the Make-A-Wish Foundation, and will soon host a virtual concert to celebrate the 30 precious years since that night. Photo courtesy subject

But it also gave him something to strive for, he says. He remembers thinking “maybe there was some transfer of magic” when he shook the hand of keyboardist and primary songwriter Martin Gore, and maybe there was: Those 15 minutes with the band made him think that music was something he could pursue.

That same summer, while on vacation at Myrtle Beach, Decker and his best friend bought what he describes as some “rock outfits” and staged a photo shoot on the beach with the water coming in behind them. Publicity pics for when their own band hit it big. For the first time since his diagnosis, Decker allowed himself to envision the future.

Ten years later, thanks to his mom’s persistence in getting her son good medical care, and to breakthroughs in HIV treatments that came just as Decker’s health really started to decline, he was writing and performing his own new wave and synth-pop songs. Many were about living with HIV—making the decision to talk about that “remains the biggest moment in my life,” says Decker. He’d begun traveling the country with his girlfriend (now wife), Gwenn Barringer, speaking to auditoriums full of young people about HIV/AIDS and sexual health.

“Life is interesting like that,” says Decker, talking by Zoom from his music room, where he’s been hosting the virtual music series Shawn’s Ongoing Spacejam during the shutdown. “Sometimes you catch some magic in another way. I never thought I’d be open about [having] HIV,” he says.

Decker turns 45 in July, and now he’s asking, “What am I going to do for another 45 years?” He hopes he’ll be an old man, one who wears plaid pants all the time. But who knows, Decker says with a smile and a shrug. It’s like Depeche Mode sings on “Nothing,” from 1987’s Music for the Masses: “Life / Is full of surprises.”


June 3, 5:08pm: This story has been updated to reflect Decker’s choice to postpone the Facebook Live concert he’d originally scheduled for this Saturday, June 6. Instead, he’ll wait until July. 

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Synthetic Division honors the good fight

There was something rather poetic about Synthetic Division’s recent impromptu performance at Goth Night at The Pit at Cinema Taco on the Downtown Mall. Melancholy cabaret duo Please Don’t Tell was scheduled to perform that night, but vocalist Christina Fleming lost her voice.

Shawn Decker—the musician behind Synthetic Division—stepped in with his keyboard, his synth and nearly 20 years’ worth of songs. “It’s kind of how I started—just me, behind a keyboard,” Decker says. “I was filling in for a friend who was having a sick day…and I’ve had my share of sick days.”

Decker 41, contracted HIV from blood products used to treat his hemophilia. He was 11 years old—a sixth-grader—when he tested positive for HIV in 1987 and was given just a few years to live.

Not long after he tested positive he heard Depeche Mode for the first time, which led Decker to post-punk acts like Echo & the Bunnymen and The Psychedelic Furs, to Joy Division and The Cure. He was drawn to “the dichotomy of a solid beat and a strong emotional message. The music was dance-y, but parts of it made you want to cry. Being an angsty teen with a big secret, I really connected to that music,” Decker says. So he got a synthesizer, jammed with friends and shyly recorded original music and vocals in the privacy of his bedroom.

“Music gave me this distraction, this thing to focus my energy on. In the early days, I wasn’t thinking about how much time I had left. I kept saying, ‘I’ll deal with it when I get sick,’” Decker recalls.

Decker got really sick in 1999, after he moved from Charlottesville back to his hometown of Waynesboro. He had just started speaking publicly about living with HIV, fallen in love with his now-partner, Gwenn Barringer, and began performing as Synthetic Division at The Dawning goth night at Tokyo Rose. He got the flu and couldn’t recover. “Each time I went to the doctor, there was less of me on the scale,” he says. “I lost 30, 35 pounds over the course of a few months. There were fewer T-cells to fight the virus,” Decker says.

Again, music saved him. “I’d be exhausted walking around the Downtown Mall, and then there I was, playing a set, getting equipment set up and being at goth night for three hours and not feeling tired,” Decker says. He savored the adrenaline rush that came with playing a live set, caught up in the emotion of the music and the energy of the crowd. Plus, “Nothing gives you more credibility at goth night than being in the active process of dying,” Decker quips in his memoir, My Pet Virus: The True Story of a Rebel Without a Cure.

At the urging of Dr. Greg Townsend, an infectious disease specialist at UVA’s Ryan White HIV Clinic, Decker started HIV medication (which was still a relatively new thing) that year. After a few months, Decker’s T-cell numbers rose; he put the weight back on. He kept playing shows and releasing albums.

Thirty years later, Decker will release Synthetic Division’s seventh original (eighth overall) record, The Love of Your Life, scheduled for physical release on February 3 at The Southern Café and Music Hall and digital release on Valentine’s Day.

The record, co-written with Alan Siegler, is about love, loss and hope. “It’s about sharing a moment with a partner that you know may not be there for very long,” Decker says. “It’s also about carrying on after the fact, realizing that the physical end might not be the actual end, and that we carry people’s spirits with us.”

The songs were inspired by Sean Strub, an HIV/AIDS and gay rights activist and founder of POZ magazine—Strub and Decker met years ago when Decker wrote a letter to POZ and Strub replied, requesting an interview with Decker and subsequently inviting Decker to write a regular column.

“Sean survived the ’80s with HIV when a lot of his friends [and his partner, Michael Misove, who’s pictured on the album cover along with Strub] didn’t,” Decker says. As he wrote The Love of Your Life, he thought about what that must have been like for Strub. “I wanted to honor him and the other people who fought so hard for a lot of rights that I have, who fought when I was too young to fight for myself,” Decker says. “They fought politicians, tried to destigmatize HIV/AIDS, tried to get medications fast-tracked, all while losing their friends.”

Decker wraps all of this sadly, gratefully into “Chance,” the fifth song on the record about the hope—and the life—that he has, thanks to Strub and so many others.

“The chances are / I’m not safe, the odds are in / A chance so slim / Has ink erased / The odds aren’t in my favor,” Decker sings amid swirling, atmospheric, mid-tempo synthesizer.

It’s Decker’s favorite song on the record, and, at the moment, it feels a bit too raw for live performance: “I’m afraid I’d start crying,” Decker says. But eventually, he’ll work it into the set—it’s too important to leave out.

“I want to say my truth and have the courage to take on other people’s emotions and viewpoints,” he says. “[Music] is just as important to me today as it was when I was at home with my headphones on, quietly singing along with my favorite albums, hoping my parents wouldn’t hear me.”